ARG!

school has started and the pace still has not slowed down. i'm all frazzled and thankfully we finished the fulbright stuff last night. i was literally on the verge of tears of frustration and exhaustion. at least the majority of the hard work is done.

on to school...

i truly miss the 2nd years. i feel very out of place and alienated from my group and now i have feelings of guilt because of it. i know they are trying to be nice, but they do and say things that irk and offend me. and what's worse is when some of the discussions lead to culturally insensitive comments. i don't want to be on pc patrol all the time (nor do i think i'm pc but the shit is offensive sometimes). i'm seriously trying to open up and be myself but i keep getting shot down.

i am going to go on hermit mode and stay in my studio and invest in a good curtain. i hate peekers! you don't want to talk to me but you want to talk about my work, wtf?