back tracking

i hate finding myself reverting back to bad habits
my bad habit was/is complaining and other's seeing it a negative especially when i'm not trying to be negative
i mean i won't front, i do complain. BUT i've learned to censor myself and only say things that really piss me off
HOWEVER, last year i found myself reverting back to my worst habit, which is not saying anything at all and holding in my feelings about things that offend me (especiallyl when i'm the outsider). this has been particularly true of school and this college environment.

i'm still trying to figure out how to balance those two issues to make it something worth listening to.