merry crismus

I AM DONE!
semester is finished. man was it a rough one.

+ i got accepted into a conference at Tulane discussing Caribbeaness so I'll be headed there in Feb. AND my dean will pay for everything!

+ show at Chapel Hill is coming along. I'll be headed down to NC early Feb

+ my director nominated me as one of the candidates for Art Chicago which is a HUGE fracking deal. if i'm selected this could be a pivotal point in my career

+ my arlington show has been set for Oct.

+ i got my xmas package from my girl in poland. woohoo for friends.

+ my final crit went great and my director and critics are excited about my work

+ AND i was vindicated from alladat drama last week. those 1@#!%!* got theirs in the end and my nomination was announced in their presence. HA

a man that doesn't stand for something will fall for any god damn thing

i can't remember what song i heard that in but those words have never rung more true to my heart right now.

i'm currently in a verbal brawl with a figure head at my school due to a miscommunication with his students and our group for our thesis exhibition. rather than address the concerns to the group in a productive manner they went on the defensive and complained to said figure head who is completely misinformed but still took it upon himself to personally attack me and insult a outside consultant.

typically i would be shook and afraid of this bullying but i think that i'm at the age where i MUST start putting my foot down or i will continue to let motherfuckers step all over me. i think i've been so passive in the past years that i've let things build up and make me an angry person instead of addressing the things that upset/hurt me. my 30s will not be about this. my 30s will be about asserting myself and really taking an active stand in my beliefs.

i really tried my best to be civil about this whole situation. when i wanted to shake the shit outta this broad i calmly said we are having a communication issue and we can't seem to work it out. i deserve a king size cookie for that!

but in all seriousness i don't want to be the victim anymore and i'm willing to apologize for my missteps but i will not allow others to rest their feet on my neck any longer.