my attitude sucks so bad that my blogger won't even let me title this :-|

so yeah, i'm really trying to work on changing this shitty attitude that i've had lately.

BREATHE BITCH

yeah...um...i'm busy and overwhelmed as always but i think i can get it under control. i think i'm stressing about this presentation i have to give tomorrow. i'm insecure about having to talk about art because i always feel like everyone's going to find out that i'm stupid and don't know shit about art, if they don't know already. i tend to sweat and get really nervous and never say what i plan on saying. i did a presentation in another class and someone complained about me reading my notes. in my mind i was thinking you're lucky i'm talking at all.

how am i going to be a teacher?

lol, i'm a mess

back tracking

i hate finding myself reverting back to bad habits
my bad habit was/is complaining and other's seeing it a negative especially when i'm not trying to be negative
i mean i won't front, i do complain. BUT i've learned to censor myself and only say things that really piss me off
HOWEVER, last year i found myself reverting back to my worst habit, which is not saying anything at all and holding in my feelings about things that offend me (especiallyl when i'm the outsider). this has been particularly true of school and this college environment.

i'm still trying to figure out how to balance those two issues to make it something worth listening to.